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Thousands of Sixth Form students across Kent have had August 15 on countdown since the beginning of June.
I have been one of them.
As a student from Northfleet School for Girls I have been constantly taught and reminded how to prepare and brace myself for the collection of my A level results.
But now the day is here I don't feel ready at all!
Although I am now lucky enough to be an editorial apprentice for KentOnline and my placement is secure, I still can't shake the looming fear that I and probably every other pupil is feeling as we await the release of our results this morning.
After all of the hard work I know myself and my peers have put into our studies, the thought of opening that dull brown envelope and seeing our worst nightmares is making me feel quite nauseous.
Over the last two years I have studied A level Media, Sociology and Photography.
Although many people label some of these subjects as 'soft' I can assure you, they really weren't.
Countless out of school hours and weekends have been spent working, sobbing, stressing and worrying as myself and friends rushed to complete deadlines for coursework and essays for teachers.
The memories of our hard work alone is why I am begging that my results reflect everything I have done and worked for over my last couple of years at school.
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A lot of students now days are continuously pressured and steered towards the university path, and although I see no issue with uni, I knew it wasn't for me.
Hence why I am now here at KentOnline gaining on the job experience.
Unlike my friends I am certain of what will happen to me over the following months. I know exactly where I am headed, what I need to achieve and who I need to learn from, and the only thing I really need to worry about is if all my revision time was worth it and whether or not I've achieved my predicted grades and made my teachers, family and friends even more proud than they already are.
Although as I write this I am still very nervous and have butterflies in my stomach, I know compared to my fellow students I have been extremely lucky.
I don't have to stress about whether or not my grades have allowed me to be accepted into my chosen university and I don't have to worry about being sorted through clearing.
"The memories of our hard work alone is why I am begging that my results reflect everything I have done...."
I must admit, I'm not as nervous as I have been at previous results days.
Although my new job has almost acted as a comforting safety net to which I am very grateful for, I think my confidence has blossomed due to my past successes at GCSE, AS and even my recent Driving Theory exam.
However, even as I have just written that sentence the sick feeling of doom sitting in the pit of my stomach sucked me back into the though process of 'what if?'.
Yes, I have done well before and yes I did all I could, but no one, not a single individual knows how the actual exam went and until I open that envelope with my name on it in a few hours time, I guess the anxiety is here to stay.
I want to congratulate every A level student for making it this far and not giving up.
This is it now! We've made it!
We've all worked so hard and no matter what grades are printed on your results today, you will all go on to achieve amazing, wonderful things.
I wish you all the best of luck and I'll see you on the other side!
