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A married GP accused of molesting two women at a Medway surgery has claimed he was having an affair with one of them.
"I could not ever believe this could turn into this kind of allegation," Dr Sanjay Chatterjee told Maidstone Crown Court.
"I betrayed my wife and family. I am quite ashamed about that. But what has been done cannot be undone."
The family doctor, who qualified in India in 1988 and whose wife is a manager in the NHS, said any intimacy with the woman was with her consent.
"I know what I did was not right," he said. "I possibly couldn't offer or give her what she ultimately wanted out of this.
"I tried my best to come out. I thought I hadn't caused her such grief, otherwise she would have spoken to me."
Chatterjee, of Perch Close, Larkfield, Maidstone, denies four charges of sexual assault and one of assault by penetration involving the first woman and one of sexual assault involving the second woman.
The prosecution allege he sexually assaulted the first woman after using his position to wield power over her.
She came forward after the other woman complained that she had been groped by the 46-year-old doctor.
The father-of-two, who came to this country in 1995, said his wife made calls to the first woman after he was suspended at a meeting with a senior doctor.
"After that meeting, I was stunned," he said. "The whole sky broke on me. I was never expecting this to happen. I had some reassurance that possibly the meeting would go differently.
"During the meeting I was shell-shocked. I had no control over my language or emotions. There was no way I could explain the whole situation about the affair.
"When I went home I was literally crying. For the first time in my life I was going to have to tell my wife I have cheated on her.
"When she heard this she also started crying. She became angry. She said: "I don't want to hear from you. She grabbed hold of my phone and started ringing.
"It was hell, basically. At that time I was acting completely like a mad person, because I don't know what I am doing or saying is right.
"I was completely in a frenzied state. The whole house was in complete shock. It was darkness. I told her everything."
The trial continues.